安全感

我对我的另一半的其中一个不可缺少的感觉是 - 安全感。

我睡觉时，一定要开着灯。这一种行为其实是一个缺乏安全感的表现。

所谓的安全感就是不管当时的情况有多危险，你还是相信拖着你的手的那个人会一直在你身边，那就是安全感。

当你在一个陌生的地方，只要有他的陪伴，你就有无比的放心。这也等于安全感。

不管他将来能不能给你幸福，只要相信他，只要有他，眼前的就是幸福 - 这是能依靠的安全感。

对方做任何东西都会让你知道，这是他给你的安心药相等于安全感。

安全感就是一种奇妙的感觉，无法解释，感觉有就有，就是这么简单。

Backpack?

I have been dreaming of going for a casual, relaxing and easy-going trip.

If possible, probably will go for atleast 3 months, at most 6 months.

A friend suggested that we could work there to pay off the hotel fee. Not a bad idea at all.

Imagine carrying a bagpack from Australia - Perth -> Adelaide -> Melbourne -> Canberra -> Sydney -> Brisbane then fly over to New Zealand - Auckland -> Wellington -> Christchurch

Do you think I can take 3 to 6 months leave? Hah!

Anyhow this will be 2012 plan, before the world ends.

Dream?

Last night I dreamt that I was late for work. RM100 gone!
Haha... Hopefully it won't come true.
3 more days left till next month.

This is Life, My Life

Still remember the first day in Melaka. Shifted to an Auntie's house. Rented a room there. Watery eyes when my parents left me there alone.

That night, I cried. I was scared. I was shy. I was all alone.

The next day, orientation started. Need to wake up at 5am in the morning to get ready. I walked to Uni when the sky was still dark. Ended after a week.

The feelings of wanting to go home was strong, but it only lasted a few days.

Now, the feelings of going home from work is WEAK!

I miss my life in Melaka. The life of freedom.

Speechless...

好欠不欠,欠ＡＨ ＬＯＯＮＧ钱。
欠到连一间家都买得起。
蠢到毙,衰到家。打肿面子充胖子。
供不起却要坐大车。
自己的烂摊子就该由自己负责,不该连累他人尤其家人。
工作又不去找,整天在家里HEA。
作了三十年人,难道他要浑浑噩噩的过一辈子吗!?
家人都为他担忧,但他却不当一回事。
真是一山还有一山高,一宗还比一宗大。
真是人神共愤!!!!!!

嗨!

从这个星期开始，我不会有期待的感觉。
就好像一条死鱼！

以后的拜六或礼拜都会呆在家。
没有人陪我看戏。
没有人陪我走街。
没有人陪我谈天。
还有很多很多。。。

不知何时才能开心回。

我看近期来都不会快乐吧。

希望这些日子能快过些。。。
希望明天会更好。

Quick Updates

It's been a long long time that I did not update my dear blog...

Very busy these days...

Why?

Celcom!
Blue Cube!
RHB!

Report! Report! Report!

Setup! Setup! Setup!

8 weeks now in GMS... Time flies...

When can I go for a vacation? A long vacation...
Probably next year I guess.

I have been driving to work these days... with my dad beside.
He has been saying every morning... "Slow, slow"
I wonder how slow he wants me to drive? 20km/h? 40km/h?

What else lately that happened?
I think I forgot most of it.
What I can think of now is...
CELCOM!
BLUE CUBE!
RHB!