Depressed

Almost every morning and evening I need to listen to a session of lecture.

Sometimes:

"When you want to learn driving? You cannot always depend on other people. You must learn to drive. Sometimes later, I will be old, who is going to fetch you to work?"

Sometimes:

"The dog is very smelly. Please ask your mum to bath her everyday. If not ask her to give away. Very dirty. Lots of ticks. Pee around the house. Very smelly. Your brother, he has difficulty in breathing ever since the dog is in the house. You cannot be so selfish, you must take care of your brother."

The last sentence that he said, I really cannot take it. Why I was the one who is selfish? I never said I wanted the dog. I have already said I don't want the dog before it arrived. Why is it my fault?

There were many other things that he said that I do not want to mention here.

I just don't understand why am I always the one who needs to listen to him? Why he can't tell the person right at the face? Why always I have to be the middle man? At work already need to see peoples' faces. At home also need to see peoples' faces. Why?

Probably the reason I die will be due to depression.

What happened recently?

On the 27th of November, I went to Sungai Petani, Kedah for computer fair. Early morning have to wake up for a long journey. Need to work till late nights only get to go back to the hotel. I came back on the 30th of November, straight to the office. So tiring, and next morning still need to work.

On the 5th of December, I need to work for KL PC fair until 6th of December. So tiring, and next morning still need to work.

Work, work, work. I want to rest. Lucky that, on the 11th of December, 18th of December, 25th of December and 1st of January is holidays. Though lots of holidays, but to me, I felt like I do not have enough rest. Probably over stress myself before the holidays.

On the 7th of December, my boy friend bought me a camera, Canon D450. So nice... hehe. Those pictures taken can only be uploaded in my Facebook, cause the file size is big, I am too lazy to upload it here.

On the 11th of December, my family and I went to Cameron Highlands. 1 day trip was fun.

On the 12th of December, my boy friend sort of celebrated birthday for me.

On the 13th of December, my mum bought me a watch. My dad took us for dinner.

On the 15th of December, my boy friend celebrated with me again during dinner time.

On the 16th of December, was my birthday, my colleagues celebrated with me in the office. So sweet... haha. My brother treat me dinner, then he say he is broke.

That's all till here.